Friday, October 1, 2010

How did he know that's exactly how I'd feel?

Sometimes I used to wonder; if Schroeder and I got divorced- but still cohabited, (aka "shacked up") while one or more of us abused illegal substances, had no job or way to support a family- if we'd magically get pregnant. It seems that's a recipe often used these days. And BAM! Out of no where Isaiah tells me this is true. Only he says it in more biblical terms. Jacob 22/Isaiah 54

"Sing, O barren, thou that didst not bear; break forth into singing, and cry aloud, thou that didst not travail with child; for more are the children of the desolate than the children of the married wife, saith the Lord- For a small moment have I forsaken thee, but with great mercies will I gather thee. In a little wrath I hid my face from thee for a moment, but with everlasting kindness will I have mercy on thee, saith the Lord thy Redeemer"

See- he totally knew. It's a good thing the last half is there, or I just might have become as the desolate, noted above, totally saved me some serious repenting.


  1. I am going to do my part to pray that particular blessing your way...and my daughter's way, too.


  2. Somehow these things seem to happen at the right time in just the right way. But it's so hard to be patient, isn't it? (I am NOT a patient person) Things have a way of working out in just the right way: its just what you would have wanted if you'd only known before that it was what you'd wanted all along. Hang in there, do your best, have faith. Blessings will follow. I, too, will pray you get everything you're hoping for.

  3. I've read this post three times now, and I still don't know what to say. What an extremely difficult trial. I had secondary infertility (that may surprise you, with all my eight kids and all--but that's why they're so far apart) and my last three kids were all Clomid babies. Except Evie. She was a blessed surprise.
    Good Luck? I'll pray for you? What can I say?
    I'm so sorry.
    It's all I got. And I know it doesn't help.